Tonight I'm feeling like I am living a life that is less than what it could be. I'm not in a funk, I'm not depressed or even down in the dumps, I swear. I'm just feeling like I'm spending these days doing the minimum and I think that in doing so I am really selling myself short.
My facebook today is flooded by posts and pictures of people/friends/acquaintances who ran in the Columbus Marathon this morning. Five years ago today I was at my lowest weight I had been in years (somewhere around 210 I believe) and I completed the Columbus Half. What if I had stuck with my journey then? I'll stop there because we all know where "what if's" get us....nowhere. Except maybe a path of regret. And I refuse to regret anything along this journey anymore.
I have a couple friends who have been losing a lot of weight the past several months and they look so FABULOUS! I have a cousin who had gastric bypass earlier this year and she looks amazing. I follow a woman on facebook who, since early 2011 has lost over 200 pounds (just by diet and exercise!) and is gorgeous. I look at my 40 pound loss (give or take) since January 2011 and I am so proud! Especially by not putting any back on after Lucas! But there is a part of me that wonders if I could really make things happen if I would just turn all this work up a notch. I'm not willing to give up everything I enjoy, I lost my weight so far without following a diet, but rather by working out, and by just being conscientious and smart about my choices and my portions. But I do think that I could concentrate a little more on my goals on a daily basis, and start choosing to do more to get closer to reaching them. Maybe step up the veggies a bit, increase the water, step up the exercise a bit (I personally think I need to do something nearly every day to keep my head in the game and just to help me stay happy and sane haha:) ....just overall focus on this journey more. My ultimate goal is to have lost 100 pounds by my birthday next year...that is about 65 pounds (give or take) in about 11 months (did I mention this before? Can't remember...bear with me:) so it's totally doable. I just need to make sure I keep my head in the game and stay focused on a daily basis. Hell, on a minute by minute basis!
I am proud of myself and where I am now in my life, I just need some tweaking. We all need a tune-up once and awhile! I can promise you that a year from now, I will not be looking back and wondering 'what if I stuck with it then?'. I'm sticking with it now. :)
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