Getting my groove back!!

Ahhh I feel like there's so much to post about and not enough space here or time to post it! :) 

SOOO I'll start with the 90 Day Challenge.  Like I said in my last post, I won!!!!  At 35.2 pounds, 15.53%, lost,  I came in first place at my club, and 58th place nationally!  They did a little announcement at the gym's cafe the next week to announce the winner and it was so sweet because both my trainers came to be with me when they announced it, and my husband who was working out at the time came down too.  It was so nice to finally know! LOL I feel like that week took forever.  But I'm really proud of myself and so thankful to my trainer friends for helping, supporting and encouraging me through it all (trust me, I am NOT easy to handle sometimes haha!).  I'm also thankful for all my friends and family too the past few months for listening to me whine LOL and pushing me to keep going.  So excited to have won!  The title means the most to me but I also won a free eyebrow wax and haircut/style at the gym spa, as well as $250 gym bucks (I applied it to my son's swim lessons...6 months free woot woot!!).  So happy. :)

So since the challenge was over I haven't weighed myself more than once or twice, and that was just shortly after the 90 days was over.  I am not concentrating on the numbers for the time being....my trainers and I have made a plan to focus on my fitness levels.  Work on getting stronger, and getting faster!!  I did loosen up a bit on things and as a couple weeks passed, I really felt my motivation waning.  I think I was just going so hard and so strong for the challenge that by the time it was over I was totally burned out.  I was still working out, going to my sessions, doing cardio, trying to make good eating choices (I did give in a little here and there but not too horribly) but my heart wasn't in it completely.  It didn't have me too anxious, just kind of down in the dumps because I couldn't get back in the groove.  On top of that I have so much going on in life right now, between my son starting a new school, my baby's birthday, and trying to organize a million things to get the house ready to sell (what a nightmare!  Moving is the pits!) I've been kind of stressed out so focusing on fitness hasn't been at the top of my list.  I don't know WHAT it is lately but I have been so crazy emotional!  It is nuts!  I'm working through it but man, it has been a rough couple of weeks. 

So that brings me to today.  My friend asked me a while back if I'd like to do a Color Mania 5K with her and I agreed.  I have a Color Run 5K with my trainer in July so I thought this would be a good one to start with.  Jami and I have been running together on Mondays and I've been trying to run when I can on my own, and we are making great progress.  The last run (3.1 mi) we did was 37:15, which is my fastest time yet by far.  Jami is so great at pushing me and she really helps me to keep the pace up and keep going.  She doesn't let me stop :)  And it's working!

So today was the Color Mania 5K.  It was a BLAST!  I was in such a funk this week, especially yesterday, and to be honest I didn't even feel like getting out of bed.  But I did, and I went and met my friend this morning, we headed out and we rocked it!  I am especially proud of her because she hadn't run a full 5K in awhile, and she ran the ENTIRE thing, AND we finished in 39:15 which is awesome!  It was so special and so nice to share that experience together.  On top of that, we had a fantastic time!  It was a great run, a fun experience, awesome people and we looked hilariously fantastic afterwards LOL.  Here are some pics for proof! ;)

Before!!!

 

At the finish line!  We rock!!!

 

Paint cloud!!

 

Us in the paint cloud LOL :)  I love this girl!!

 

 

I may or may not have rolled around on the ground :)

 

I also may or may not have dumped a paint packet on my friend's back ;) hehe

 

Loved it!!!!

 

 

 

 

So I honestly feel like this race today helped me get my fitness mojo back!  I felt that runners/race day high all day today and I am so excited for the next one.  My friend and I have an Electric Run later this month and I'm so pumped!  And then the Color Run with Jami next month too.  I'm even thinking about looking up some more for later in the summer.  I really am feeling that excitement back...the feeling that you get when you're doing things right and you're getting stronger.  I've been really happy with my training, my running with Jami and all that and I really feel like I've been making good progress (a couple months ago I couldn't even THINK about getting a 5K in under 40, no way!).  I am feeling that focus again and it feels good!!

Freezing Time

I am really sorry that I haven't posted lately.  Life has been crazy and there have been a million things going on.  I have been a little stressed with everything and just haven't taken the time to write.  Tonight, I am actually not getting on to write about my weight loss or my health journey at all.  I will share though that I won my contest!!  I will write more about that in a separate post soon, but I thought I should at least announce that news.  I'm so happy with myself and so excited that all my hard work paid off. :)  Yay!

This week has been so emotional for me.  My 4 year old's birthday is in late September so we have decided to wait another year before he starts kindergarten.  He has been in an awesome preschool program the last 2 years through a child center that one of my best friends owns.  This fall he will be starting a full time Pre-K program at a different center in our area, and he will start summer camp at the new place in a week or so to get used to it before school starts.  His last day at his preschool was today and his little graduation ceremony was last night.  SO adorable!  I have a lot of anxiety with the change (I don't do well with the unknown) as we are both so comfortable where he is.  Because I am so close to the owner, I know all the staff and teachers extremely well and consider them good friends.  So I guess I feel like that makes it a little harder.  The worst part is when Ian gets sad that he won't see his friends anymore.  I tell him he will make lots of new ones, and he seems okay with that.  I am thankful that he is more excited than nervous, and I'm definitely not letting him get any sense of my emotions about the situation.  Trust me friends, I know that everyone with kids goes through this.  I also know I am more emotional than a lot of people.  I am ok with that, I just need to work through it.  Simply put, the reality is that I just don't want him to grow up.  I want to keep him my little boy forever.  He brightens every single one of my days and I want to keep him home with me, I don't want him gone all day every day.  I just want to have a pause button on life.  I want to soak in a few more moments of this little boy before he isn't so little anymore. 

The other thing that is pulling on my heartstrings this week is that my sweet little baby boy is turning one on Sunday.  How did this happen!?  I promise I just brought him home from the hospital a few weeks ago!  I look at him standing up next to me, clutching the edge of the chair, grinning his toothy grin at me and I am astounded at the speed at which this year has flown by.  I have thought a lot about his birthday the past month or so and I haven't gotten emotional at all (I was a WRECK when Ian turned one) but all of a sudden I am so overwhelmed with feeling.  This life is so quick, so uncontrolled, it is astonishing to me.  I want to grab them both, sit them on my lap, rest their little boy heads on my shoulders and wrap their sweet tiny arms around my neck and keep them there, cuddling them and just holding on to them like that, trying to memorize the feeling of them right now.  Every moment they are older, each second they are not the same as they were the moment before.  I am afraid that tomorrow I will blink and they will be grown.  It is unbelievable how quickly our lives unfold in front of us. 

I wish I could freeze time.  I would hold these sweet little beautiful boys in my arms forever.