Tonight I'm exhausted and in kind of a funk. The last week or two has been rough! I've had ear infections that have been driving me crazy...not so much the pain but the fact that I am dizzy and everything sounds like it's underwater. But worse, Jeff was SO sick over the weekend so I didn't have much down time from taking care of the boys. Luke has been so crazy fussy the last couple of days that it's been really frustrating (I think he's teething again). On top of getting up at 5am to get cardio in at the gym on my non-PT days, I'm just tired!
Tonight all I want is a big huge piece of cake with buttercream frosting, some pizza and a big plate of spaghetti. Not sure why those specific cravings but that's what's on my mind tonight! I made spaghetti for everyone last night (I was having brown rice, chicken and veggies) and I had a bite of Ian's. I haven't had white pasta (or baked potatoes!) since the end of last year and I kind of forgot how great it tastes! Don't get me wrong, I've had a little bit of white rice, and a roll or something like that here and there...I haven't given them up 100% but I've really limited them. Tonight I had a salad and it was the last thing I wanted. I know that I am making great progress but man, for some reason this week is really pushing my buttons.
I think part of my problem today is that before the boys went to bed they were snuggled up next to me so I asked Jeff to take a picture. Ugh! I hated how I looked in it! It's so frustrating to have made so much progress and then still not like what you see, or worse yet, feel as if you don't look like you've made any progress at all. When am I going to take a picture and like what I see? When will I stop asking Jeff to take it again over and over until I pose JUST the right way that I approve? So frustrating.
I'm not giving up, I'm not going to go binge, or anything like that, and I'm still going to the gym in the morning. I will push past this. But tonight, I'm going to let myself be a little pissed off. Tomorrow will be a new day.
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OMG I was completely like that Saturday. It is frustrating and knowing you are working so hard and not "seeing" enough results fast enough is incredibly mind-numbing and soul sucking. Cliche I know, but slow progress is still progress. Once I got my funk out of me, I felt much better. Here's hoping everyone in your family starts feeling better. My hubby has been fighting it too and causing me several sleepless nights this week. Just keep on trucking on. You really are doing well and I have a feeling that we will both be seeing some results real soon. Besides ONEderland is knock, knock, knocking on our door!
Thanks girl!! Ugh it's nice to not be alone. Why can't we just have a good week and magically be at goal!? LOL ;) Definitely soul-sucking!! That is a good description!! Hehe trying to keep my eye on that awesome prize of ONEderland!!!
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