Whatever..

-1.8 for the week: I am now at 244.4 pounds.

Personal Loss: -13.4 total, 5.2% gone
Challenge Loss: -8.4 total, 3.3% gone

Yes, this is awesome.
Yes, I am getting healthier.
Yes, this is much better than if I had done nothing and still weighed 257.8 pounds.
Yes, I should be proud of myself.
Yes, I am making progress.

Facts:
I go to the gym almost every day, where I work out almost 2 hours, mostly of high impact cardio work.
I lift weights at home numerous times a week.
I take Ian for walks as much as possible.
I have a abs/butt/thigh video I do at home.
I haven't had any 'trigger' foods in three weeks.
I have dropped carbs dramatically out of my diet.
I have added more protein into my diet then I have eaten in years.
I drink tons of water and take a women's metabolism vitamin.

My feelings right now:
It's not fair.
I weighed over 250 pounds when I started this, it should be easier to lose weight.
I'm not asking for 4 pounds a week, but could I at least just hit 2? 2?!?!?
Normal size people could lose 1.8 pounds a week if they wanted, just by eating healthy and exercising occasionally..I am busting my ass for that and I hate it.
I hate myself for letting me get to this point.
I can't keep up this effort for the next year of my life...I spend my entire day focused on how much exercise I can do and how healthy I can eat. It is exhausting and today I don't think it's worth not even 2 pounds.
I hate even venting to people because I know I should be happy that I am losing but I can't help the disappointment.
I am not going to win this challenge. I just need to accept that.

I am just having a bad day. I will get over it.

Today, I just hate everything.