90 Days

So I had planned to check in again before now but time flies. At least I'm here now, right?! I haven't written, but not because things have been bad...in fact they've been pretty good. June 15th was my last day as an Insurance Underwriter. I am SO blessed to be staying home with Ian from now on. It's something Jeff and I have planned for quite a while and it's finally come to fruition. I could not be happier! Of course, there are good days and bad days, but I really feel like a new person. To get up each day and be greeted by Ian's cute little face is the biggest blessing...never would I have imagined I would be so lucky.

While the best part about being home is the time with him, I also feel like this new chapter in my life is an opportunity for me to find myself. I have time to focus on things that I have ignored for too long. And I am so excited about it! I feel like I have a new lease on life, a new perspective on myself and it feels good. It's going to be a long long journey, but I feel like I'm finally coming into my own.

SOOOO 90 days. Tomorrow morning I will be driving to Lifetime, getting my photo taken, and getting on a scale to weigh in for a 90 day contest that will be my life for the next 3 months. I am SO nervous but really pumped. August 7th - November 4th Lifetime is having a contest for who can lose the biggest percentage of weight in 90 days. I have been going to the gym a bit more since I left work, and noticed the signs about the contest a few days ago. I've been contemplating signing up but finally just made up my mind last night. So tomorrow is the big day. I know I can do this. I am ready for it. I feel like this came up at this time for a reason...like God knew I'm home now, that I have the right mindset now, and I feel His strength guiding me to do this. So I am. I would love to win the contest, but moreover I just want to try. I feel like there are probably going to be hundreds of people signed up, and tomorrow is going to be SOO overwhelming and intimidating but I will make it through. Even when I feel like everyone there is laughing at me and wondering why the heck I'm there, I will remember that I can do it. I will prove that I can do it. On November 4th I will weigh less than I do at this moment. And I will be so proud.

Bye-bye old me;)